Is this really fate or reality?

How come it has to be so hard to like someone? I'm actually struggling with falling in love with someone and it's horrible. I never turn out being with the one I like. Is it just reality or fate? Fate that I can't be with the one I like? This is just starting to be pathetic. I'm always hurt and I hate it! I prefer not falling in love the first time. Better thinking that we're friends than the fact that I think I like him. I'm hating it now! Everyone thinks that I'm always happy but they don't really know what's going through my mind. But I just have to really get over it and live life happily.